Life with 2 Babies Under 2 yrs old….

Well, I’m 3 months in to being a mom of 2 under 2. I have to say I love it. It’s so strange that until 6 years ago I never wanted to have children. This was just not something that ever interested me. I never followed the norm of wanting to be married and have children. Now, don’t mistake this as not enjoying my relationship thoroughly. I do and always have. I love my relationship, but I just never thought I needed a piece of paper (marriage license) to prove my relationship or happiness.

My grandmother really pushed for us to get married, as she felt we were already living as a married couple. So, as she was getting sick and we knew her time with us earthside was shortening….we decided to get married. We planned our first wedding in NC in just 9 days and we had a blast! So many family and friends and it was just as we wanted it. Just perfect. Our Canadaian family couln’t make it on such short notice, so we married again in October in Canada. Completely different than the NC wedding, but just as amazing. So, here’s the girl that never wanted to get married having 2 weddings to the same man. Funny isn’t it?

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Wedding in NC

 

 

 

Well, here I am again….never wanted children, now have 2. I guess I’m not the best at always knowing what’s best for me. Gotta say…. I love being married and I LOVE being a mom. To my surprise, I’d love to have 6 babies. We won’t have 6, but I seriously could. That’s how much I love being a mom. Not to say I don’t want to have 3, but that has be agreed on by both parties.

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Wedding in Ontario, Canada

Either way, I’m ecstatic to have the 2 babies I have and wouldn’t trade it for anything.

This has got me thinking. How much you can change your whole thought process on life. How life can take you in a total different direction. This is can be things that are happy or not. Sometimes we’re thrown curveballs. They can happen in an instant, so we have to be willing to change. Willing to see other ways. Willing to adjust and adapt. It may not always be what we wanted or dreamed of, but it may just be….just be what is inteded for us. Roll with the good and the bad. Not always easy, but sometimes we don’t have choice. We have to learn to grow. We have to learn to help one another. Not stay so bottled up and worried about what others think of us. Just reach a helping hand, a listening ear and help.

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My 2 under 2!

Help others. Doesn’t matter if you agree with what they think/feel. Just help. You never know what others are going through. Be patient and try to have sympath and openness. You never know what can change you and your path.¬†

 

Lots to Learn–Come Journey with Me! ūüĎĪ‚Äć‚ôÄÔłŹūüĎ∂ūüź∂

 

 

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The Amazing Human Body!

First, my last post was misleading to those who know me. I am not currently pregnant. I mentioned in my last post that I never fully relaxed during my pregnancy. After the molar pregnancy, I was a bit on edge during this¬†pregnancy. In feeling like this, I did not¬†feel comfortable talking¬†about, writing about my pregnancy while I was pregnant. We didn’t even tell family we were pregnant until I was around 18 weeks, which was after the anatomy ultrasound.¬†

I don’t know if my feelings are¬†normal, but after the pain of having a molar pregnancy, I¬†just couldn’t feel “safe” during this pregnancy. I did try to remind myself to enjoy this time. I didn’t have too rough of a pregnancy. I felt as though I had a mild case of stomach flu until around week 20. Then, I felt amazing. This mild flu feeling¬†returned around week 32. The Human Body just amazes me. It really wasn’t until I went through this pregnancy that I realized how truly incredible our¬†bodies are. The way our bodies move and open to accept this life growing inside. I was in awe watching my ribs widen to make space for baby, my hips opened, the veins you see so visible throughout your body, which shows the¬†transportation of food and life. Our hormones…oh those hormones. I didn’t notice my mood changing very much, but I noticed my cravings and dislikes.¬†This was crazy to me. I’ve always liked room temperature water…now it had to be ICE cold w/ lemon. I could only drink light¬†coloured soft¬†drinks, I COULD NOT tolerate any coffee or tea, which I am a true coffee¬†connoisseur. I’ve been a¬†vegetarian for 8 years, but I craved meat during my

Abt 12 deer Matt was feeding at Iroquois--March 17, 2013 (2)

We see so many deer on our hikes! Beautiful, majestic creatures. Make me feel so peaceful.

pregnancy.¬†Just crazy stuff. Another is I LOVE to exercise. I didn’t do much of my normal routines as I wasn’t taking any chances of disturbing the life inside of me. I did hike an hour most every day, walked every night and did weight training. I just was¬†shocked at how¬†incredibly winded I would get. Hills on my hikes that might slow me a bit, now fully take my breathe away. I now have to stop and rest. What? Never had to do that in my life.

It’s just amazing to me how our bodies change, grow and just know what to do to protect and nurture the life inside. It blows my mind how¬†it all progresses. More fun is to get all the advice as¬†to what gender my baby is going to be. Everyone has a guess, an opinion and a reason for their opinion.¬†What a blast. What is the gender? Have to wait til next week…..

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Our Australian Shepherd Furbabies out on our hike!

 

 

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May Look the Same, But Could Not Be More Different!

All of us in Austria--Amazing!

My Mom!

This blog has been going on for just over a year now. I can’t help but look back at a year ago when I first began blogging. I think about last December when my life was just about to be turned upside down. Last February may look the same, but feels drastically different. What a difference a year can make. This makes me think back for a moment: I had lost one of my two precious dogs and little did I know that last December, only 8 months after losing Stryker, my other dog Tazz would pass away. Little did I know that last December I would become pregnant and find out that my mother had breast cancer.

Then, I move to January where all hell broke loose. My mother had a mastectomy at the same time I had a D&C due to my molar pregnancy. My mom and I would be 12 hrs away from one another (NC to Ontario) having surgeries and supporting each other from afar. Neither of us could be there physically for one another, but somehow the mother/daughter bond brought us through. Amazingly, in one of her worst times and one of mine, we were helping the other be stronger than ever before. Sometimes you don’t have to be beside someone to have a connection, support, love.

Stryker & Tazz on a nice day!

Besties!

MG and I--Mayan Riviera

Follow that up w/ last February. It just kept going. My HcG¬†levels were dropping nicely. All felt like after the worst time of my life things were going right. Then, on Feb 5th my fiance and I made an overnight decision to get away and surprise some family w/ a visit to Mexico. On the way to the airport, my best friend reaches out to tell me her mother passed away suddenly. We have been best friends since we were 4 yrs old. This wonderful woman was a 2nd mother to me. Again, being 12 hrs¬†away (NC to Ontario) and now on a flight to Mexico, how could I be there to support her? Needless to say I wasn’t physically there for her either. Our strength¬†in friendship overrides all though and we got through it–together. After an amazing vacay¬†in the Mayan Riviera, my HcG levels started to rise. I was sent to several specialists and ending at the oncologist’s where they wanted me to get chemo. You can read in my earlier blogs all about that ordeal.

The rest of my year went well and brings me to now. Same month, same spelling, same feeling as last year, but very different. Thank God! My life has changed in so many ways. I look back and wish things had not gone the way they did, but I learned so much. I truly became a better person, a much different person, but better. I realized how special each and every day is and how short life is and how quickly they can change. I learned to try not to take things so seriously and try to focus on the positive.

They love to watch the ducks!

My 2012 will be different. I have two new amazing pups. They will never be Stryker and Tazz, but I don’t want them to be. They are who they are and we are having a blast. I love them like crazy and I don’t compare–that wouldn’t be fair to me or them. I waited long enough for me to get anther dog and it is amazing. My mother is doing very well and I just hope to be¬†half as strong as her. I never realized how amazingly tough, strong and powerful she was until she went through cancer. As terrible as that was for her it made her a better person. She retired from a job she didn’t enjoy anymore (she would never have left if not for the cancer), she goes to cooking classes, walks, exercises, eats better and the list goes on. All things she never really did before cancer. My best friend is doing well and still has rough patches in getting through the emotions of losing her mother, but she is ok. I have been cleared, finally, after a year of blood work and tests. I don’t have to have any check ups now.

We all have ups and downs. Mine all happened in a 10 month span. I’m sure I will have more as life goes on. I’ve learned to be strong for others and help even if I can’t be right by their side. A true bond will get you through as long as you are there in some form. I try to see the positive and I’m much stronger. My life could not be more different from¬†a year ago. There’s a lot I would change, but I got through it. I survived. You all will. Sometimes it takes time and when you are at your lowest is when you have to fight the hardest. It is so easy to be happy when all is well. The true test of character is when times are rough. Mine and my loved ones true character’s came out last year and I’m proud to say we are all better people and could not have supported each other more. I’m honored to be in each and every one of your lives–the one’s mentioned here and the other’s who just supported me in the background–you know who you are and I thank you! Here’s to 2012!

After a Cold Swim

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It’s Been A Month? Time Flies!

I took a look at my blog page for the first time yesterday in a long time. I was surprised to see that my last entry was a month ago. Where does time go? I was amazed at how many of you are still reading and checking in w/ me to see if I’ve posted again. So, thanks to all of you and I will try to be better.

First came my little red merle

Two weeks later my little blue merle boy was 8 wks old and ready to come home…

So, what has been keeping me busy…..well, these 2 boys. After the loss of our previous 2 Australian Shepherds we took about a year to heal. For us, we needed this time. Unfortunately, we have a lot of friends and aquaintances we see on our hiking trail every day who have also lost pets (family members to all of us). Some need to find a new member of the family immediately, some have waited 15 yrs to make the addition. For MG and I it was a year. He nor I spoke of getting a new pup for a long time. I train in obedience and agility and do some herding, so I always have my eyes on breeders that I like. I do a lot of research before I decide on a breeder, pup, etc. So, I had been researching for when we were ready, I would be up to date w/ what was going on in the Aussie world. Well, a few months back MG brought up that he wanted a pup, he missed the friendship and happiness that dogs bring to our lives. Even though I had been researching, I thought it would be a couple of years before I made the addition. I just never really let myself think of it. I still hurt, miss and think of Stryker and Tazz every day. It hasn’t gotten easier and I have realized it just never will. I will never get over losing them. Once MG mentioned it, I started thinking. At first, I wasn’t sure I was ready, then it really grew on me. I began to look inside myself and realize the sadness and lack of life I had. This is because we are DOG people. We need them and love them.

Fast forward a bit and I fell in love w/ 2 breedings. We bagan to look at the option of getting 2 pups at the same time. I liked this b/c we travel, sit on patios, go for visits, etc a lot. I don’t want to have a dog that is 3yrs old, perfect and trustworthy and start all over w/ a pup. I would rather have 2 that are close in age, but once they are trustworthy, they both are. So, that’s what we did. They are 2 wks apart in age. One is from here in Canada (Orillia) and the other is from Michigan. We love them. Funny thing is that both have important meanings and I wasn’t looking for this at all. My oldest (11 wks today) is from Pink Ribbon Kennels and she named her kennel this b/c of her mother’s struggle w/ breast cancer. As you know, my mother survived breast cancer a year ago. My youngest (9wks old yesterday) was born on 9/11. This was the 10 yr anniversary of the 9/11 event. Obviously I’m an American, so this date is very significant. Ironinc? Maybe.

Anyway, my life is full¬†w/ 2 bundles of joy and we could not be happier. I could use more sleep, but these boys are pretty perfect. We now get up at 6am everyday and stay up until at least midnight (I’m a real estate agent–we work all the time). Fortunately, if MG and I do decide to have children, this is a great warm up to prepare us. Get ready, you will be getting a lot of pics and stories about these 2 Australian Shepherds. It is never a boring day around here.

At least someone around here gets some sleep….

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How High Can You Count?

Sometimes I feel like I can’t count higher than 10. Growing up I was a dancer. Ballet, jazz, tap, hip hop and African. African was amazing b/c it as so free and there were live drummers. Fantastic! Anyway, in dance you generally count to 8 and repeat. You may add in an “and a”, but that’s it. I noticed the other night when watching the hockey team we help, play their game, I only count up to 5. So, now my counting is getting even lower. Since I’m the trainer for the team, I’m always counting to make sure I see 5 players standing when on the ice. If they aren’t standing, that means they may be hurt and may need my help. Ok, getting even stranger…we ate at 5 Guys Burgers and Fries. Even restaurants don’t count higher than 5. Wanna guess how many workers were there?…..You got it–5! By the way, first time at this place and I had the most amazing grilled veggie sandwich!

This got me thinking about how much of our brains we don’t use. Or maybe we do. See, I may not use numbers, a lot or math, but I use my knowledge in other areas. We learn so many things in school and basically in my opinion, it just lays the base for where we want to focus our attention. Some use this knowledge to be doctors, scientists, accountants, teachers, etc. I use mine for socialization in real estate (people skills), healthy eating, dog training. We all have skills and we use them in the areas we are most interested.

No matter where you choose to focus your attention, do it and do it well. There’s no need to feel like you are less b/c you didn’t choose one thing over another. It takes just as much skill and thought to use the more “artsy” side of ourselves than to use the perceived “business” side. I used to wonder what my career would be b/c I was more drawn to what most see as hobby than career. Now, I sell real estate, but I continue w/ my hobby jobs and love them. I train dogs, teach exercise and nutrition (hope to get back in to both of these soon) and dance. The dancing tends to stay in private or at weddings. You can’t help but dance at weddings.

My whole thought has changed. I think there is a need for every choice of career. If you are passionate about something you are doing, you will be good at it and there will be a need for it. People want to trust and if you are skilled at what you are doing, they will trust you. Your love for what you are doing will ooze out of you. Use what you have and turn it into your life, your career. Don’t let anything stop you. So, the fact that I don’t count higher than 10 in my every normal day doesn’t matter. I’m doing things I love w/ people I love and that is the best feeling in life.

Thought I’d leave you w/ one of my favorite vines in our back yard. It was green all summer, but is now turning beautiful shades of red, purple–all the colors of fall.

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It’s Getting A Little Spooky!!!

Around this house, we decorate. We don’t have any kids, probably one of only a few on this street¬†that don’t, but we decorate better than anyone. We love it. I know my fiance’s family enjoy decorating and they do a lovely job. My family was always very interested in decorating. I remember some phenomenal Halloween’s growing up and looking forward to all that sugar. Now, the thought of all that candy makes me nauseous. Just the thought, ugghhh, tummy churning, tummy churning. We love handing out all that candy though. We decorate a lot, even change the color of our outdoor lights to match the holiday. We always dress up and hand out candy. Then, it’s off to whatever activity happens next.

So, as you will see, one of the busy things in my life is decorating and buying more decorations. The good thing is¬†that some of my newbies are on sale. 50% off. Score! and I don’t have to do too much explaining to the King of our house. By the way, he will definitely not like being called “King”. ¬†Anyway, here are some pics. They don’t do it justice, but still fun. MG even spent hours hand painting the 2 coffins. They look magnificent. Sometimes you get caught up in your own work. This paintbrush just kept following him around.

I also really enjoy haunted houses. My best friend and I used to go to every haunted house, trail, hayride, you name it. I still try to make it to one or 2 during the season. I can’t stand the anticipation. It always gets me. I still scream like a 4 yr old every time I go. I know they can’t hurt me, but it is that darn anticipation that something around that next corner is going to get me.

Boo!

 

 

 

 

 

 

When it comes to holidays, I’m still a kid. I like to enjoy them, decorate, etc. They make me really happy. This is part of why I love fall. I’m anticipating the good around the corner. Since I’m a US citizen in Canada, I get to enjoy TWO Thanksgiving’s. How lucky is that? Darn lucky for someone who loves holidays. I enjoy the family time, the hustle and bustle, the crispness in the air and all the other decorations at people houses. You should see the looks as people pass by our outdoor skeleton. They give some pretty crazy looks. To make things worse, we added a spider in the tree that hangs down. Looks get a bit crazier. It’s all in fun. I love it and it makes me smile. Hopefully it makes others smile. Actually, it does. After the look of concern, every person continues walking w/ a smile. We’ve even had neighbors thank us for making their days happier. How much they enjoy looking at our decorations every day. That’s nice. I almost decorate now more for others than for us, but I still enjoy it more than anyone.

Oh, a picture that is spooky w/o having anything to do w/ Halloween. We were driving down the highway the other day just as this plane was landing. Some see this every day b/c the airport is near the highway. Me, I don’t see this much and it is a little spooky to see this huge plane, flying so low and close to the cars. You never know if they are landing properly. All was good, but left me w/ a little thought. Well, enjoy the season and the decorating!

 

 

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Feeling Good….

I just realized it has nearly been a month since I last wrote a post. September has flown by. Hard to believe it is the first day of October. I love writing that b/c I just love October. Fall is here, the trees, shrubs, etc are all turning magnificent colors of red, orange, purple, yellow, you name it. We have been really busy w/ all kinds of new and exciting things. One of the best busy things, hell, best things this year was my mom, best friend and her brother (might as well be my second brother) coming to Canada for their first visit. So, I will write about some of the other things on a later date, but this post is dedicated to the amazing time we all had together!

This was their first time being in Canada, seeing my home and surrounding areas and the best part was meeting all of my fiance’s family. In looking back at all the photos, I cannot believe how much we did in just a few short days. I also gained a whole new appreciation of the scenery amongst me. Where I live is beautiful and amazing and we tend to take it for granted. We get to enjoy it everyday and forget the wonderment of it all. I can tell¬† you we all slept very well at night. We went to Niagara Falls, rode on the Maid of the Mist, visited several local trails on the water, some good hiking trails, visit w/ amazing family and friends and of course we had to do the 460 escarpment stairs. Thank goodness for our camera. You just don’t realize how fabulous these views are. So lucky.

The weather could not have been much better. Nice days around 70F-75F w/ just a bit of rain. The rain was welcomed b/c we could rest a little between our adventures. I hope they all enjoyed their time here in Canada, but no one could have enjoyed their visit more than me. They are amazing, special people and I’m so fortunate to have them all in my life. My best friend and I have been friends since we were 4 yrs old. That’s special. Then, the bond between mom and daughter is like nothing else in this world. And T, my friend’s brother, I don’t know where to begin. He was a second brother, always treated me like family and taught me some vital shopping habits. I just can’t say enough about the 3 of these family members. I’ll leave it w/ thank you to each of you for being in my life and sticking through thick and thin w/ me. And now for taking the time to come for a visit to see my new world. That is us, halfway up the escarpment stairs. Fantastic city view, eh?

I still can’t believe they were all here and I hate that they are all back in NC now. I miss them already. It does make the next few months more bearable until I can get back to NC for my visit. I’m already looking forward to that.

Seems like I’m getting a bit mushy, so I’ll leave you w/ my best friend’s happy dance (or as she says–“there was a bee around me”) and ¬†some more pics. Now, if all these pics don’t inspire you to get out, explore, travel and just take life in, I don’t know what will. Enjoy!

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