The Amazing Human Body!

First, my last post was misleading to those who know me. I am not currently pregnant. I mentioned in my last post that I never fully relaxed during my pregnancy. After the molar pregnancy, I was a bit on edge during this pregnancy. In feeling like this, I did not feel comfortable talking about, writing about my pregnancy while I was pregnant. We didn’t even tell family we were pregnant until I was around 18 weeks, which was after the anatomy ultrasound. 

I don’t know if my feelings are normal, but after the pain of having a molar pregnancy, I just couldn’t feel “safe” during this pregnancy. I did try to remind myself to enjoy this time. I didn’t have too rough of a pregnancy. I felt as though I had a mild case of stomach flu until around week 20. Then, I felt amazing. This mild flu feeling returned around week 32. The Human Body just amazes me. It really wasn’t until I went through this pregnancy that I realized how truly incredible our bodies are. The way our bodies move and open to accept this life growing inside. I was in awe watching my ribs widen to make space for baby, my hips opened, the veins you see so visible throughout your body, which shows the transportation of food and life. Our hormones…oh those hormones. I didn’t notice my mood changing very much, but I noticed my cravings and dislikes. This was crazy to me. I’ve always liked room temperature water…now it had to be ICE cold w/ lemon. I could only drink light coloured soft drinks, I COULD NOT tolerate any coffee or tea, which I am a true coffee connoisseur. I’ve been a vegetarian for 8 years, but I craved meat during my

Abt 12 deer Matt was feeding at Iroquois--March 17, 2013 (2)

We see so many deer on our hikes! Beautiful, majestic creatures. Make me feel so peaceful.

pregnancy. Just crazy stuff. Another is I LOVE to exercise. I didn’t do much of my normal routines as I wasn’t taking any chances of disturbing the life inside of me. I did hike an hour most every day, walked every night and did weight training. I just was shocked at how incredibly winded I would get. Hills on my hikes that might slow me a bit, now fully take my breathe away. I now have to stop and rest. What? Never had to do that in my life.

It’s just amazing to me how our bodies change, grow and just know what to do to protect and nurture the life inside. It blows my mind how it all progresses. More fun is to get all the advice as to what gender my baby is going to be. Everyone has a guess, an opinion and a reason for their opinion. What a blast. What is the gender? Have to wait til next week…..

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Our Australian Shepherd Furbabies out on our hike!

 

 

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Wow! A Lot Has Changed In 3 Years!

So, when I left off 3 years ago I was looking at 2 paths. Life was a whirlwind, but a good one. Now, life is the best it’s ever been. As many of you probably know, I started this blog as a way to help others especially with Molar Pregnancies. I had recently endured a turbulent many months full of wonder, fear and the unknown. I had to accept that I was not in control. I had no other choice BUT to accept that fact. Getting pregnant, staying pregnant, having a baby—I have found that all of this is out of my control.

Control: the act or power of controlling; regulation; domination or command. I’ve always had control of my life. My feelings, my job, how things were going to turn out. Yep, yep and yep–I had it under control.

Then, my hubby mentioned that we should start trying to get pregnant as we aren’t getting any younger. Rewind to the end of 2010 w/ the Molar Pregnancy and the many years since. Over these years is when I learned that some things aren’t and never will be in my control!

Sometimes the best things are worth the wait. For some those things may never happen and we have to find the happiness in what we have. May not always be easy, trust me, but sometimes that’s the way it is.

Since taking these 3 years off to go about my life and see which path would happen for me, I am hoping to start writing again. My life has changed in so many ways and I’ve had many wonderful compliments about this blog that I really want to put some information back out there. Even if I’m the only one that reads this blog at least I have my stamp on this blog. Something that anyone can look and realize that life throws many curveballs, ups and downs, but it’s all about how we deal w/ this life we’ve been given. Hope to keep up this time and not let life get in the way.

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The Almighty Dollar!

Obviously money is important. I get it. But that is all that matters right now. At least that is how I feel. Money, money, money! In my profession, real estate, you can take classes to move higher in your field. For instance, I am a salesperson and working towards my Broker license. What does that mean? Well, it means that I have a better title and can open my own brokerage if I wanted to. That’s about it. It is an accomplishment, but the overseeing school for real estate sees it as more money. I am awaiting results on a recent test, which I hope to do well on. This course costs nearly $500 & if I have to re-take the test it costs an additional $50. If you don’t pass after the 2nd try–you guessed it–you get to pay the entire $500 again. Yippee! Now, seriously isn’t that absurd?

Greed seems to be running the world right now. Look at gas prices, insurance, clothing, food, etc. Greed is so prevalent that you never know what to believe anymore. Do I take this supplement or is someone just selling it to me to make the money. There’s so many gimmicks out there. Wear this jewelry–it will solve all your problems. Give money to this man–he somehow can cure everything w/ a dab of special water. It just seems nuts, but the problem is that these people are marketing to others who are weak at that time. People who need help, not a con man.We all are guilty of wanting that quick, easy fix. I definitely am guilty!  We all are vulnerable at times and don’t take the time to ask specifics–we just act or maybe just react. Either way, it is someone’s greed preying on innocence.

The real issue is that as prices rise, people who normally just enjoying helping others stop doing so. You can’t afford to help as much. At some point you have to make ends meet. It’s all cyclical. I was at Lululemon, one of my fav stores. I was very interested in a dress they were selling. I was interested until I saw it in person. They are asking $100 for a piece of cloth w/ two arm holes. That’s it! To me, there was no style, detailing, nothing. That is what made me think to write this post. I love Lulu, 98% of my closet is Lulu. I’m not going to stop buying it, but I am going to start taking notice when they get too greedy. This company charged less money when all the clothing was being made here in Canada. Now that they have started having clothing made elsewhere they are asking more money. Isn’t that the exact opposite of what is supposed to happen? I know this may make some dedicated Lulu lovers angry, but it’s the truth. That’s how it is–can’t get mad at the truth. Like I said, I love the company, the clothing and all, but I have to start realizing when they are just asking for too much. That’s my stand–not buying things when they are obviously overpriced for what I think they should be.

Well, enough of my pedestal talk, but I just wanted to point this out.I wanted to put out a reminder to still try to help. It doesn’t go un-noticed. Of course, you have to take care of your own needs and in doing this you may not be able to do as much for free, but do some. Please don’t let the greedy people win. Stand up for things you belive in and do what you can . We all appreciate it.

To totally change the topic and end on a lighter note…doesn’t this pic get you in the mood for spring? Being outdoors, seeing all the bright new life that is growing. Very exciting. Also, we’ve been enjoying MG’s newest yummy creation of avocado, w/ spicy oil drizzled on and baked until golden. Insanely delish! Add a bit of asparagus w/ some oil, baked, sprinkled w/ parmesan and what a delightful meal. Full of vitamins, protein, good fats, folate, iron, calcium, just to name a few.

I even made some vegetarian tacos the other night. Pretty easy to do, as anyone who knows me knows I am NOT a cook, but they tasted great. Not necessarily packed full w/ vitamins, but a nice treat from time to time.

Thanks for listening and remember to not always think w/ your pockets!

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May Look the Same, But Could Not Be More Different!

All of us in Austria--Amazing!

My Mom!

This blog has been going on for just over a year now. I can’t help but look back at a year ago when I first began blogging. I think about last December when my life was just about to be turned upside down. Last February may look the same, but feels drastically different. What a difference a year can make. This makes me think back for a moment: I had lost one of my two precious dogs and little did I know that last December, only 8 months after losing Stryker, my other dog Tazz would pass away. Little did I know that last December I would become pregnant and find out that my mother had breast cancer.

Then, I move to January where all hell broke loose. My mother had a mastectomy at the same time I had a D&C due to my molar pregnancy. My mom and I would be 12 hrs away from one another (NC to Ontario) having surgeries and supporting each other from afar. Neither of us could be there physically for one another, but somehow the mother/daughter bond brought us through. Amazingly, in one of her worst times and one of mine, we were helping the other be stronger than ever before. Sometimes you don’t have to be beside someone to have a connection, support, love.

Stryker & Tazz on a nice day!

Besties!

MG and I--Mayan Riviera

Follow that up w/ last February. It just kept going. My HcG levels were dropping nicely. All felt like after the worst time of my life things were going right. Then, on Feb 5th my fiance and I made an overnight decision to get away and surprise some family w/ a visit to Mexico. On the way to the airport, my best friend reaches out to tell me her mother passed away suddenly. We have been best friends since we were 4 yrs old. This wonderful woman was a 2nd mother to me. Again, being 12 hrs away (NC to Ontario) and now on a flight to Mexico, how could I be there to support her? Needless to say I wasn’t physically there for her either. Our strength in friendship overrides all though and we got through it–together. After an amazing vacay in the Mayan Riviera, my HcG levels started to rise. I was sent to several specialists and ending at the oncologist’s where they wanted me to get chemo. You can read in my earlier blogs all about that ordeal.

The rest of my year went well and brings me to now. Same month, same spelling, same feeling as last year, but very different. Thank God! My life has changed in so many ways. I look back and wish things had not gone the way they did, but I learned so much. I truly became a better person, a much different person, but better. I realized how special each and every day is and how short life is and how quickly they can change. I learned to try not to take things so seriously and try to focus on the positive.

They love to watch the ducks!

My 2012 will be different. I have two new amazing pups. They will never be Stryker and Tazz, but I don’t want them to be. They are who they are and we are having a blast. I love them like crazy and I don’t compare–that wouldn’t be fair to me or them. I waited long enough for me to get anther dog and it is amazing. My mother is doing very well and I just hope to be half as strong as her. I never realized how amazingly tough, strong and powerful she was until she went through cancer. As terrible as that was for her it made her a better person. She retired from a job she didn’t enjoy anymore (she would never have left if not for the cancer), she goes to cooking classes, walks, exercises, eats better and the list goes on. All things she never really did before cancer. My best friend is doing well and still has rough patches in getting through the emotions of losing her mother, but she is ok. I have been cleared, finally, after a year of blood work and tests. I don’t have to have any check ups now.

We all have ups and downs. Mine all happened in a 10 month span. I’m sure I will have more as life goes on. I’ve learned to be strong for others and help even if I can’t be right by their side. A true bond will get you through as long as you are there in some form. I try to see the positive and I’m much stronger. My life could not be more different from a year ago. There’s a lot I would change, but I got through it. I survived. You all will. Sometimes it takes time and when you are at your lowest is when you have to fight the hardest. It is so easy to be happy when all is well. The true test of character is when times are rough. Mine and my loved ones true character’s came out last year and I’m proud to say we are all better people and could not have supported each other more. I’m honored to be in each and every one of your lives–the one’s mentioned here and the other’s who just supported me in the background–you know who you are and I thank you! Here’s to 2012!

After a Cold Swim

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Christmas Anyone?

No Scrooges allowed in our house. We love Christmas! I think we are usually the first on  our street to decorate and definitely decorate the most. One of the few homes without children, but w/ the most decorations. We enjoy it. What I don’t enjoy is taking them down. Does anyone else notice how fun, easy, and seemingly quick it is when the lights are going up? Well, we enjoy it. We have the pups around playing, the Christmas tunes cranked, the fireplace glowing, a steaming hot coffee nearby and a big box full of tangled lights, containers of forgotten ornaments and loads of “now where does this go again” conversations. We use a boxed tree, so I have a lovely smelling pine tree candle burning, so we get the feel of a live Christmas tree. I just love it. But then comes Dec 26th….all downhill from there. The lights still come on b/c of course you cannot remove them b/c of some superstition w/ waiting until after New Year’s Day. So, like w/ every holiday, once it is time for the decorations to come down, we get them down. We don’t have quite the glow, smile or sugar-plum fairies dancing in our heads, but we get them down. It is almost like a mission…a little minor war of our own. No Christmas music, dancing, still have the hot coffee, but not talking. Just boxing, removing, labelling and trying to find which box each ornament originally belonged in. It seems to take forever, but we bunker down and get it done.

I even enjoy all the hustle and bustle at the malls, stores, etc. It just keeps you in the spirit. Everywhere you go there’s lights, music, just joy in the air. Well, most of the time. If you save all your shopping until the last night—you may not have or see as much joy. Just remember the point to the season. For me, I will never take Christ out of Christmas and it does make me sad to see how much “he” is being left out of this holiday. Also, it is always about family, joy, being happy and of course presents. I still love presents. I don’t care about my birthday, but I’m still a kid when it comes to Christmas morning. I think I always will be. I enjoy giving and surprising others as much if not more than I enjoy receiving. One thing for sure…LuluLemon is definitely on my wish list. We’ve been so lucky here for weather as well. It is starting to get pretty cold here now, but no snow. The days are still very nice–cool, crisp, sunny, but the nights are COLD! Still, no snow yet. Usually, I’m excited for snow and I still am this year, but w/ the 2 pups around, I’m enjoying the warmer temps right now. It is much easier to take them out for their “washroom breaks” when it is not bone-chilling, snow-covered nights.

Anyway, please enjoy the holidays. Don’t take them for granted. Remember your loved ones, friends, others who don’t have anything (human and animal) and the true meaning of Christmas for you. Everyone has their own individual meaning for Christmas, so celebrate it and do what you want. This is the time for “wants” not “needs”. Enjoy the time w/ family and friends and soak up every moment. You never know what next year may bring, so treat it like you won’t get this moment again. Live it, enjoy it and make the most of the entire season!

Family Christmas 2011

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It’s Been A Month? Time Flies!

I took a look at my blog page for the first time yesterday in a long time. I was surprised to see that my last entry was a month ago. Where does time go? I was amazed at how many of you are still reading and checking in w/ me to see if I’ve posted again. So, thanks to all of you and I will try to be better.

First came my little red merle

Two weeks later my little blue merle boy was 8 wks old and ready to come home…

So, what has been keeping me busy…..well, these 2 boys. After the loss of our previous 2 Australian Shepherds we took about a year to heal. For us, we needed this time. Unfortunately, we have a lot of friends and aquaintances we see on our hiking trail every day who have also lost pets (family members to all of us). Some need to find a new member of the family immediately, some have waited 15 yrs to make the addition. For MG and I it was a year. He nor I spoke of getting a new pup for a long time. I train in obedience and agility and do some herding, so I always have my eyes on breeders that I like. I do a lot of research before I decide on a breeder, pup, etc. So, I had been researching for when we were ready, I would be up to date w/ what was going on in the Aussie world. Well, a few months back MG brought up that he wanted a pup, he missed the friendship and happiness that dogs bring to our lives. Even though I had been researching, I thought it would be a couple of years before I made the addition. I just never really let myself think of it. I still hurt, miss and think of Stryker and Tazz every day. It hasn’t gotten easier and I have realized it just never will. I will never get over losing them. Once MG mentioned it, I started thinking. At first, I wasn’t sure I was ready, then it really grew on me. I began to look inside myself and realize the sadness and lack of life I had. This is because we are DOG people. We need them and love them.

Fast forward a bit and I fell in love w/ 2 breedings. We bagan to look at the option of getting 2 pups at the same time. I liked this b/c we travel, sit on patios, go for visits, etc a lot. I don’t want to have a dog that is 3yrs old, perfect and trustworthy and start all over w/ a pup. I would rather have 2 that are close in age, but once they are trustworthy, they both are. So, that’s what we did. They are 2 wks apart in age. One is from here in Canada (Orillia) and the other is from Michigan. We love them. Funny thing is that both have important meanings and I wasn’t looking for this at all. My oldest (11 wks today) is from Pink Ribbon Kennels and she named her kennel this b/c of her mother’s struggle w/ breast cancer. As you know, my mother survived breast cancer a year ago. My youngest (9wks old yesterday) was born on 9/11. This was the 10 yr anniversary of the 9/11 event. Obviously I’m an American, so this date is very significant. Ironinc? Maybe.

Anyway, my life is full w/ 2 bundles of joy and we could not be happier. I could use more sleep, but these boys are pretty perfect. We now get up at 6am everyday and stay up until at least midnight (I’m a real estate agent–we work all the time). Fortunately, if MG and I do decide to have children, this is a great warm up to prepare us. Get ready, you will be getting a lot of pics and stories about these 2 Australian Shepherds. It is never a boring day around here.

At least someone around here gets some sleep….

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How High Can You Count?

Sometimes I feel like I can’t count higher than 10. Growing up I was a dancer. Ballet, jazz, tap, hip hop and African. African was amazing b/c it as so free and there were live drummers. Fantastic! Anyway, in dance you generally count to 8 and repeat. You may add in an “and a”, but that’s it. I noticed the other night when watching the hockey team we help, play their game, I only count up to 5. So, now my counting is getting even lower. Since I’m the trainer for the team, I’m always counting to make sure I see 5 players standing when on the ice. If they aren’t standing, that means they may be hurt and may need my help. Ok, getting even stranger…we ate at 5 Guys Burgers and Fries. Even restaurants don’t count higher than 5. Wanna guess how many workers were there?…..You got it–5! By the way, first time at this place and I had the most amazing grilled veggie sandwich!

This got me thinking about how much of our brains we don’t use. Or maybe we do. See, I may not use numbers, a lot or math, but I use my knowledge in other areas. We learn so many things in school and basically in my opinion, it just lays the base for where we want to focus our attention. Some use this knowledge to be doctors, scientists, accountants, teachers, etc. I use mine for socialization in real estate (people skills), healthy eating, dog training. We all have skills and we use them in the areas we are most interested.

No matter where you choose to focus your attention, do it and do it well. There’s no need to feel like you are less b/c you didn’t choose one thing over another. It takes just as much skill and thought to use the more “artsy” side of ourselves than to use the perceived “business” side. I used to wonder what my career would be b/c I was more drawn to what most see as hobby than career. Now, I sell real estate, but I continue w/ my hobby jobs and love them. I train dogs, teach exercise and nutrition (hope to get back in to both of these soon) and dance. The dancing tends to stay in private or at weddings. You can’t help but dance at weddings.

My whole thought has changed. I think there is a need for every choice of career. If you are passionate about something you are doing, you will be good at it and there will be a need for it. People want to trust and if you are skilled at what you are doing, they will trust you. Your love for what you are doing will ooze out of you. Use what you have and turn it into your life, your career. Don’t let anything stop you. So, the fact that I don’t count higher than 10 in my every normal day doesn’t matter. I’m doing things I love w/ people I love and that is the best feeling in life.

Thought I’d leave you w/ one of my favorite vines in our back yard. It was green all summer, but is now turning beautiful shades of red, purple–all the colors of fall.

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