The Amazing Human Body!

First, my last post was misleading to those who know me. I am not currently pregnant. I mentioned in my last post that I never fully relaxed during my pregnancy. After the molar pregnancy, I was a bit on edge during this pregnancy. In feeling like this, I did not feel comfortable talking about, writing about my pregnancy while I was pregnant. We didn’t even tell family we were pregnant until I was around 18 weeks, which was after the anatomy ultrasound. 

I don’t know if my feelings are normal, but after the pain of having a molar pregnancy, I just couldn’t feel “safe” during this pregnancy. I did try to remind myself to enjoy this time. I didn’t have too rough of a pregnancy. I felt as though I had a mild case of stomach flu until around week 20. Then, I felt amazing. This mild flu feeling returned around week 32. The Human Body just amazes me. It really wasn’t until I went through this pregnancy that I realized how truly incredible our bodies are. The way our bodies move and open to accept this life growing inside. I was in awe watching my ribs widen to make space for baby, my hips opened, the veins you see so visible throughout your body, which shows the transportation of food and life. Our hormones…oh those hormones. I didn’t notice my mood changing very much, but I noticed my cravings and dislikes. This was crazy to me. I’ve always liked room temperature water…now it had to be ICE cold w/ lemon. I could only drink light coloured soft drinks, I COULD NOT tolerate any coffee or tea, which I am a true coffee connoisseur. I’ve been a vegetarian for 8 years, but I craved meat during my

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We see so many deer on our hikes! Beautiful, majestic creatures. Make me feel so peaceful.

pregnancy. Just crazy stuff. Another is I LOVE to exercise. I didn’t do much of my normal routines as I wasn’t taking any chances of disturbing the life inside of me. I did hike an hour most every day, walked every night and did weight training. I just was shocked at how incredibly winded I would get. Hills on my hikes that might slow me a bit, now fully take my breathe away. I now have to stop and rest. What? Never had to do that in my life.

It’s just amazing to me how our bodies change, grow and just know what to do to protect and nurture the life inside. It blows my mind how it all progresses. More fun is to get all the advice as to what gender my baby is going to be. Everyone has a guess, an opinion and a reason for their opinion. What a blast. What is the gender? Have to wait til next week…..

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Our Australian Shepherd Furbabies out on our hike!

 

 

“Make It A Great Day–Go Inspire!”

 

Oh, Those Pregnancy Wants and Don’t Wants!

Oh the joy of seeing that positive sign on the infamous stick. Joy and more joy….and the awful worry. See, I’ve had that “+” sign before and became filled with that ever so naive feeling of being pregnant and waiting to meet my baby. It’s not that easy. Not always. Not for all of us. It certainly wasn’t easy for me. Here I am a few years after the Molar Pregnancy, holding another positive pregnancy test, but this time with excitement and fear running through my veins. How do I know this won’t have the same outcome? Is this a growing, healthy baby or a bunch of molar cells that could turn to cancer?

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The first time I got pregnant–ended in a molar pregnancy

Week 6, Week 12 go by and all seems to be going well. Every day I just couldn’t relax. I did take time to enjoy my pregnancy, but not fully. I always had this nagging feeling, the what if something goes wrong again feeling. I was so oblivious before. I just thought getting pregnant would be easy and once you were pregnant…you just have a baby 9 mos later. Little did I know how truly difficult it is to get pregnant, to sustain a pregnancy and to have healthy baby. I spent so much of my life protecting myself from getting pregnant that I never realized the true beauty, challenge and overall miracle getting pregnant would be.

Around week 12 I noticed some bleeding again. This was a rough moment. I just felt fragile right then. There’s nothing you can do stop the bleeding, to stop a miscarriage. It’s out of your hands. There’s nothing anyone can do. I felt like a failure. This was the only moment throughout my pregnancy that I felt like I was having a breakdown. It was awful. I had my 12 week ultrasound coming up in a few days. What an agonizing wait those couple of days were. You read online that all is ok, some searches said all was not ok. What a cruel feeling. Google can be your best friend or worst enemy.

Well, the days pass by and off to the ultrasound we go. I’m so nervous that my cheeks are flushed, my heart is visible through my shirt and my bladder is so full I feel it in my throat. Not only was this the day for my genetic screening, but for me, this was the day to find out if all was ok after the bleeding…..

It took 1hr b/c our baby was so active. This was ok with me. All I needed to know is that the baby was active. All else didn’t matter at that time…Not even my overly full bladder. By the way, I was asked to partially empty 3 times. Have you ever tried “partially emptying” your bladder? That is a real challenge. All your body wants to do is FULLY EMPTY your bladder. Great Kegel exercise though. Mind over matter in this case. Phew is that tough!

 

“Make It A Great Day–Go Inspire!”  

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

What Excites You?

Lately, I’ve felt a little dull. You know that feeling when life is moving along at a good, steady pace, but nothing really excites you? That’s me! I have little excitements like the wonderful spring days lately, nice meals (MG made me a fantastic breakfast and an even better dinner–the orzo from my recipe tab), getting my patio equipment out, etc. But, nothing big right now. Usually there’s something…big vacation, shopping adventure, something. It has been a lot of work w/ real estate, cleaning, preparing for other things, and so on. For instance, MG worked really hard today on getting our outdoor projects ready for spring. Here he is hard at work…then, after I made him a hot, delicious coffee…all smiles. Well, sorda how he smiles. Bahahah!!!

I think it is ok to not have something big and exciting always going. I’m just not good at being ok w/ it. I usually have something. Whether it is so small as getting a package in the mail (ie. Lululemon garment) or making a big real estate deal. I’ve made a lot of deals lately, but none that just make you stop and go, “Hell Yeah! Thought I’d never get that done!”.

I am trying to get away for just a few days to NC to see my family and friends. I think this is part of my dullness lately. I need to get back home at least 2 to 3 times a year to get my refresher. I NEED my own family and friends. That doesn’t mean I don’t adore everyone here, I just desire “home” sometimes. Right now, it isn’t looking good for me to get away. Real estate is insanely busy and there would be no one here to cover for us. NC is my rejuvenation. I always fall into this lull after not getting home for a while and it is amazing my new attitude once I’m back. It is almost as good when family and friends come to Canada to visit. I was looking over some photos today longing for that part of me.

That is what got me thinking about what excites us. I like to have something out of the ordinary to look forward to. In Feb I went to Mexico and stayed at the El Dorado Casitas. Amazing, very excited! Real estate excites me, but on a different level. Get what I mean by out of the ordinary? See how big my smile is w/ my mom and best friend. Got to meet my best friend’s baby for the first time–exciting! Below is my dad and brother visiting Canada for the first time at Thanksgiving! Exciting! Even better– it was the first time that a family member has been able to stay w/ me at my very own house.

Well, I think I need to get home. Besides that I need to find something that excites me again. Maybe I need to get back in to teaching fitness classes like Pilates. I love that and haven’t taught in a while. A lot of my happiness came from my dogs and I miss that terribly. Still not ready for a new dog yet. Oh well, I will keep working on thoughts of what excites me. What excites you? I would love to read some comments from you guys that might inspire me.

See, I do enjoy the little things all the time. For instance, I was so excited that MG made 2 delicious meals, got the patio ready and so many other fantastic things. I will always feel excitement over new clothes, shoes, you name it. Even these new hanging flowers we bought today put a huge smile on my face. Nonetheless, I need some new umph, vavoom in my life. Not sure what it will be yet, but I will figure it out.

Until I do, I will keep enjoying the everything I can and appreciating what I have. I do feel lucky every day for my family (NC and Canada), friends, health, home, career and most of all my relationship. I’m not complaining about anything. I rise and shine w/ a descent sized smile on my face (not a morning person) and awaiting what each every day will hold for me. I just need that little extra that gets me out of bed quicker every day. No matter, I’m a lucky gal!

“Make It A Great Day–Go Inspire!”

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