The Amazing Human Body!

First, my last post was misleading to those who know me. I am not currently pregnant. I mentioned in my last post that I never fully relaxed during my pregnancy. After the molar pregnancy, I was a bit on edge during this pregnancy. In feeling like this, I did not feel comfortable talking about, writing about my pregnancy while I was pregnant. We didn’t even tell family we were pregnant until I was around 18 weeks, which was after the anatomy ultrasound. 

I don’t know if my feelings are normal, but after the pain of having a molar pregnancy, I just couldn’t feel “safe” during this pregnancy. I did try to remind myself to enjoy this time. I didn’t have too rough of a pregnancy. I felt as though I had a mild case of stomach flu until around week 20. Then, I felt amazing. This mild flu feeling returned around week 32. The Human Body just amazes me. It really wasn’t until I went through this pregnancy that I realized how truly incredible our bodies are. The way our bodies move and open to accept this life growing inside. I was in awe watching my ribs widen to make space for baby, my hips opened, the veins you see so visible throughout your body, which shows the transportation of food and life. Our hormones…oh those hormones. I didn’t notice my mood changing very much, but I noticed my cravings and dislikes. This was crazy to me. I’ve always liked room temperature water…now it had to be ICE cold w/ lemon. I could only drink light coloured soft drinks, I COULD NOT tolerate any coffee or tea, which I am a true coffee connoisseur. I’ve been a vegetarian for 8 years, but I craved meat during my

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We see so many deer on our hikes! Beautiful, majestic creatures. Make me feel so peaceful.

pregnancy. Just crazy stuff. Another is I LOVE to exercise. I didn’t do much of my normal routines as I wasn’t taking any chances of disturbing the life inside of me. I did hike an hour most every day, walked every night and did weight training. I just was shocked at how incredibly winded I would get. Hills on my hikes that might slow me a bit, now fully take my breathe away. I now have to stop and rest. What? Never had to do that in my life.

It’s just amazing to me how our bodies change, grow and just know what to do to protect and nurture the life inside. It blows my mind how it all progresses. More fun is to get all the advice as to what gender my baby is going to be. Everyone has a guess, an opinion and a reason for their opinion. What a blast. What is the gender? Have to wait til next week…..

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Our Australian Shepherd Furbabies out on our hike!

 

 

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Oh, Those Pregnancy Wants and Don’t Wants!

Oh the joy of seeing that positive sign on the infamous stick. Joy and more joy….and the awful worry. See, I’ve had that “+” sign before and became filled with that ever so naive feeling of being pregnant and waiting to meet my baby. It’s not that easy. Not always. Not for all of us. It certainly wasn’t easy for me. Here I am a few years after the Molar Pregnancy, holding another positive pregnancy test, but this time with excitement and fear running through my veins. How do I know this won’t have the same outcome? Is this a growing, healthy baby or a bunch of molar cells that could turn to cancer?

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The first time I got pregnant–ended in a molar pregnancy

Week 6, Week 12 go by and all seems to be going well. Every day I just couldn’t relax. I did take time to enjoy my pregnancy, but not fully. I always had this nagging feeling, the what if something goes wrong again feeling. I was so oblivious before. I just thought getting pregnant would be easy and once you were pregnant…you just have a baby 9 mos later. Little did I know how truly difficult it is to get pregnant, to sustain a pregnancy and to have healthy baby. I spent so much of my life protecting myself from getting pregnant that I never realized the true beauty, challenge and overall miracle getting pregnant would be.

Around week 12 I noticed some bleeding again. This was a rough moment. I just felt fragile right then. There’s nothing you can do stop the bleeding, to stop a miscarriage. It’s out of your hands. There’s nothing anyone can do. I felt like a failure. This was the only moment throughout my pregnancy that I felt like I was having a breakdown. It was awful. I had my 12 week ultrasound coming up in a few days. What an agonizing wait those couple of days were. You read online that all is ok, some searches said all was not ok. What a cruel feeling. Google can be your best friend or worst enemy.

Well, the days pass by and off to the ultrasound we go. I’m so nervous that my cheeks are flushed, my heart is visible through my shirt and my bladder is so full I feel it in my throat. Not only was this the day for my genetic screening, but for me, this was the day to find out if all was ok after the bleeding…..

It took 1hr b/c our baby was so active. This was ok with me. All I needed to know is that the baby was active. All else didn’t matter at that time…Not even my overly full bladder. By the way, I was asked to partially empty 3 times. Have you ever tried “partially emptying” your bladder? That is a real challenge. All your body wants to do is FULLY EMPTY your bladder. Great Kegel exercise though. Mind over matter in this case. Phew is that tough!

 

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Wow! A Lot Has Changed In 3 Years!

So, when I left off 3 years ago I was looking at 2 paths. Life was a whirlwind, but a good one. Now, life is the best it’s ever been. As many of you probably know, I started this blog as a way to help others especially with Molar Pregnancies. I had recently endured a turbulent many months full of wonder, fear and the unknown. I had to accept that I was not in control. I had no other choice BUT to accept that fact. Getting pregnant, staying pregnant, having a baby—I have found that all of this is out of my control.

Control: the act or power of controlling; regulation; domination or command. I’ve always had control of my life. My feelings, my job, how things were going to turn out. Yep, yep and yep–I had it under control.

Then, my hubby mentioned that we should start trying to get pregnant as we aren’t getting any younger. Rewind to the end of 2010 w/ the Molar Pregnancy and the many years since. Over these years is when I learned that some things aren’t and never will be in my control!

Sometimes the best things are worth the wait. For some those things may never happen and we have to find the happiness in what we have. May not always be easy, trust me, but sometimes that’s the way it is.

Since taking these 3 years off to go about my life and see which path would happen for me, I am hoping to start writing again. My life has changed in so many ways and I’ve had many wonderful compliments about this blog that I really want to put some information back out there. Even if I’m the only one that reads this blog at least I have my stamp on this blog. Something that anyone can look and realize that life throws many curveballs, ups and downs, but it’s all about how we deal w/ this life we’ve been given. Hope to keep up this time and not let life get in the way.

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