Balance….

I was reading a blog that I really enjoy today, www.lovelyandimperfect.squarspace.com and she was asking what we enjoy about spring.  My response just came flowing out. I’m ready for spring. I love spring! Not too hot, not too cold. I can’t wait to take my journal back out to the patio while sipping on coffee. Can’t wait for all my flowers to start to bloom again, such an array of color. I just love spring. The beautiful warmer days w/ crispness to the night winds. Just beautiful and magical. Laying outside watching the stars and all the animals come around again. The longer days and so on. Just can’t wait. Spring is always a welcomed site here in Canada.
I got to enjoy a great morning. MG and I had needed to get outside as much as we could early b/c they are calling for rain here for the next couple of days. We went out for an earlier morning jog along one of our trails. This trail runs along the top of the escarpment (see April 21, Floating on a Cloud) overlooking the city. I stopped for 5 seconds to snap this picture of what we see the whole time we jog on this trail. It was so nice b/c it is Easter Monday, so many people were out today with their children and/or dogs enjoying some family time. This makes me really miss my 2 boys (Stryker and Tazz). I just know I’m not ready yet. Not ready to add a puppy back into the craziness of our lives right now.

We then went for a walk in Oakville and I got to enjoy 3 of  my favorite things. We grabbed a Starbucks Americano and headed to LuluLemon and Bluboho (lovely jewelry store–all jewelry from local creators www.bluboho.com). I haven’t been to either store in a while, so I was going through serious withdrawal. Very proud, I didn’t buy anything, probably the first time that has ever happened. 

All is balance. Real Estate is really picking back up, which is good, but I like to reward myself by buying things. I don’t think I’ve had a real challenge lately that warrants a purchase. You gotta feel good about buying things.

We all have our ups & downs. We just have to find balance. You have to work for your goals, push for them, but sometimes you have to just relax and let things happen. I am very social and I usually enjoy being around others. I found that when I left my surroundings, my comfort in NC to move around w/ MG and finally land in Canada, I tried too hard. I’ve always had things just kind of line themselves up for me. I never had to try too hard. Then, I was taken out of my comfort zone and wham! it was difficult. I needed my friends, family, etc. See I’m extremely impatient. This is not an attribute. I want things done. I want them to happen now. So, when I left, I wanted everything I had & I needed it immediately. I wanted my name to have the same notoriety, I needed friends, I already had a relationship, but I needed it to be perfect. See where I’m going?

Then, I found balance. Once I stopped over pushing for things, they seemed to line up. While we were moving around and MG was still playing hockey, I started teaching fitness again. I would find a local gym and get involved. This helped me feel good that I was doing something to help myself and at the same time helping others. Actually, I haven’t taught here in Canada and I miss it, need to get the courage to get going again. Another topic for another blog. I met wonderful people who I still keep in touch with today. We don’t live near each other anymore, but we still keep in touch.

I see this in many people.  A lot of people in a relationship, want to be single. Singles want to meet someone. Once they stop looking and start enjoying time on their own, that special someone just walks right in. It’s like that w/ friends. We tend to try too hard to make people like us. I’m really bad about this. I like to be liked. I want to be friends w/ people who have similar interests. It’s difficult to make friends when you are out of school and not seeing the person every day. You have to try harder to meet up. Once I stop searching and trying to make friends w/ everyone, I sit back and realize that while trying to make connections w/ new people, I was forgetting my “real” friends. That’s when I realized I need more balance in this area. Yes, its nice to meet new people and if there is a connection, great! But, I have people already in my life, some new and some old, that care and like me. They are interested in me and what I do. I don’t have to try to get them to like me, they just do.  That’s my balance. Focusing on what I already have.

Same went for my molar pregnancy. I was fighting so hard to control something that is uncontrollable. I was told that there was nothing I could do to lower my hormone levels. Guess what, if they didn’t drop, I’d need chemo. There’s so many problems w/ this statement for me. I need control.  I desperately want my levels to drop so that I can move forward w/ life. I am terrified of getting chemo. Once, I finally stopped stressing over these 3 uncontrollable things, and just realized, I have no control, I can’t move forward until my levels drop and I may need chemo to drop my levels to move forward; my levels came way down. Amazing!

It’s all about balance. Stop trying to “make” things happen, stop trying to control everything and everyone and let the pieces of the puzzle fall where they may. I still believe you have to stay focused, fight, push for things, but just don’t overdo it. Your love, your friends, personality, career will fall into place w/ hard work and determination, but not over pursuing. This is very difficult to do. This is something I am working on, which is why I felt the need to blog about it. So, I don’t want to make it seem so easy, b/c it’s not, but if you start to think about just relaxing and taking it all in, it will work itself out.   

Nice and steady–don’t go too far left or right! Just enjoy and appreciate!

 

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