I went for my follow up with my specialist who performed my surgery. On march 8th my levels went up again to 34, then up again on March 15th, to 38. This is getting very scary. I am well aware that when your levels start to rise, that means the tumours have attached to the uterus wall and the only way to get them down is chemo (either methotrexate or acetomycin-D). The chemo treatments can be very hard on your body. Also, I live such a clean life w/ food, exercise, I don’t even take medicine for headaches or anything. The thought of having to go through chemo scared the hell out of me. Also, once you do chemo your “trying again” time gets even more delayed. This is not looking positive for me. I went to see my specialist 3 days ago (just got lucky–it was my 8wk follow up appt). She said she would give me another month to see if my body would adjust itself, but that out of all the one she’s seen, they never come down on their own w/o the chemo. I went home and cried, then got angry, then just spaced out. I’m terrified! I just don’t want to go through this. Why can’t any of this go the way it should. If I feel like this, I can only imagine what my fiance is going through. He really has no control. He just has to sit back an watch me agonize over this. I’m so sorry to him as well. So, in order to move forward, I called her back an hour after leaving and said, please go ahead and book the oncologist appt. I now have my family Dr and the specialist telling me they never go down w/o help! I give up, I don’t want to hurt my loved ones any longer. Let’s just get the chemo going and get all of this behind us!
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