The Amazing Human Body!

First, my last post was misleading to those who know me. I am not currently pregnant. I mentioned in my last post that I never fully relaxed during my pregnancy. After the molar pregnancy, I was a bit on edge during this pregnancy. In feeling like this, I did not feel comfortable talking about, writing about my pregnancy while I was pregnant. We didn’t even tell family we were pregnant until I was around 18 weeks, which was after the anatomy ultrasound. 

I don’t know if my feelings are normal, but after the pain of having a molar pregnancy, I just couldn’t feel “safe” during this pregnancy. I did try to remind myself to enjoy this time. I didn’t have too rough of a pregnancy. I felt as though I had a mild case of stomach flu until around week 20. Then, I felt amazing. This mild flu feeling returned around week 32. The Human Body just amazes me. It really wasn’t until I went through this pregnancy that I realized how truly incredible our bodies are. The way our bodies move and open to accept this life growing inside. I was in awe watching my ribs widen to make space for baby, my hips opened, the veins you see so visible throughout your body, which shows the transportation of food and life. Our hormones…oh those hormones. I didn’t notice my mood changing very much, but I noticed my cravings and dislikes. This was crazy to me. I’ve always liked room temperature water…now it had to be ICE cold w/ lemon. I could only drink light coloured soft drinks, I COULD NOT tolerate any coffee or tea, which I am a true coffee connoisseur. I’ve been a vegetarian for 8 years, but I craved meat during my

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We see so many deer on our hikes! Beautiful, majestic creatures. Make me feel so peaceful.

pregnancy. Just crazy stuff. Another is I LOVE to exercise. I didn’t do much of my normal routines as I wasn’t taking any chances of disturbing the life inside of me. I did hike an hour most every day, walked every night and did weight training. I just was shocked at how incredibly winded I would get. Hills on my hikes that might slow me a bit, now fully take my breathe away. I now have to stop and rest. What? Never had to do that in my life.

It’s just amazing to me how our bodies change, grow and just know what to do to protect and nurture the life inside. It blows my mind how it all progresses. More fun is to get all the advice as to what gender my baby is going to be. Everyone has a guess, an opinion and a reason for their opinion. What a blast. What is the gender? Have to wait til next week…..


Our Australian Shepherd Furbabies out on our hike!



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Oh, Those Pregnancy Wants and Don’t Wants!

Oh the joy of seeing that positive sign on the infamous stick. Joy and more joy….and the awful worry. See, I’ve had that “+” sign before and became filled with that ever so naive feeling of being pregnant and waiting to meet my baby. It’s not that easy. Not always. Not for all of us. It certainly wasn’t easy for me. Here I am a few years after the Molar Pregnancy, holding another positive pregnancy test, but this time with excitement and fear running through my veins. How do I know this won’t have the same outcome? Is this a growing, healthy baby or a bunch of molar cells that could turn to cancer?

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The first time I got pregnant–ended in a molar pregnancy

Week 6, Week 12 go by and all seems to be going well. Every day I just couldn’t relax. I did take time to enjoy my pregnancy, but not fully. I always had this nagging feeling, the what if something goes wrong again feeling. I was so oblivious before. I just thought getting pregnant would be easy and once you were pregnant…you just have a baby 9 mos later. Little did I know how truly difficult it is to get pregnant, to sustain a pregnancy and to have healthy baby. I spent so much of my life protecting myself from getting pregnant that I never realized the true beauty, challenge and overall miracle getting pregnant would be.

Around week 12 I noticed some bleeding again. This was a rough moment. I just felt fragile right then. There’s nothing you can do stop the bleeding, to stop a miscarriage. It’s out of your hands. There’s nothing anyone can do. I felt like a failure. This was the only moment throughout my pregnancy that I felt like I was having a breakdown. It was awful. I had my 12 week ultrasound coming up in a few days. What an agonizing wait those couple of days were. You read online that all is ok, some searches said all was not ok. What a cruel feeling. Google can be your best friend or worst enemy.

Well, the days pass by and off to the ultrasound we go. I’m so nervous that my cheeks are flushed, my heart is visible through my shirt and my bladder is so full I feel it in my throat. Not only was this the day for my genetic screening, but for me, this was the day to find out if all was ok after the bleeding…..

It took 1hr b/c our baby was so active. This was ok with me. All I needed to know is that the baby was active. All else didn’t matter at that time…Not even my overly full bladder. By the way, I was asked to partially empty 3 times. Have you ever tried “partially emptying” your bladder? That is a real challenge. All your body wants to do is FULLY EMPTY your bladder. Great Kegel exercise though. Mind over matter in this case. Phew is that tough!


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Wow! A Lot Has Changed In 3 Years!

So, when I left off 3 years ago I was looking at 2 paths. Life was a whirlwind, but a good one. Now, life is the best it’s ever been. As many of you probably know, I started this blog as a way to help others especially with Molar Pregnancies. I had recently endured a turbulent many months full of wonder, fear and the unknown. I had to accept that I was not in control. I had no other choice BUT to accept that fact. Getting pregnant, staying pregnant, having a baby—I have found that all of this is out of my control.

Control: the act or power of controlling; regulation; domination or command. I’ve always had control of my life. My feelings, my job, how things were going to turn out. Yep, yep and yep–I had it under control.

Then, my hubby mentioned that we should start trying to get pregnant as we aren’t getting any younger. Rewind to the end of 2010 w/ the Molar Pregnancy and the many years since. Over these years is when I learned that some things aren’t and never will be in my control!

Sometimes the best things are worth the wait. For some those things may never happen and we have to find the happiness in what we have. May not always be easy, trust me, but sometimes that’s the way it is.

Since taking these 3 years off to go about my life and see which path would happen for me, I am hoping to start writing again. My life has changed in so many ways and I’ve had many wonderful compliments about this blog that I really want to put some information back out there. Even if I’m the only one that reads this blog at least I have my stamp on this blog. Something that anyone can look and realize that life throws many curveballs, ups and downs, but it’s all about how we deal w/ this life we’ve been given. Hope to keep up this time and not let life get in the way.


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Door 1 or Door 2–What Would You Choose?

Well, life is ever changing. Strange as it is…it always gets stranger. I’ll go in to this deeper later on. I was presented w/ a choice. Actually, it wasn’t even a choice.choice.preview[1] It was more like do this to achieve this or aforementioned “this” won’t happen. What???? It will all be clear one day. Another blog for another day.

What I’d like to know is what most of you would do. If given the choice of keeping something you love or giving that up to have something you want. This happens in every day life. It could be a job, relationship, house, whatever. You currently have something special and you KNOW you love. Could/would you give that up for something you KNOW you WOULD love, but don’t have and possibly never will.Abt 12 deer Matt was feeding at Iroquois--March 17, 2013 (2)

I choose to keep what I currently have and love. Hopefully, all else will fall into place. If it does, that’s great! If it doesn’t…well, at least I know what I have and that means the world to me. Life isn’t always easy and those are the times we learn the most. You might as well learn to bend or else.

Happy Easter and welcome to Spring!

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The Almighty Dollar!

Obviously money is important. I get it. But that is all that matters right now. At least that is how I feel. Money, money, money! In my profession, real estate, you can take classes to move higher in your field. For instance, I am a salesperson and working towards my Broker license. What does that mean? Well, it means that I have a better title and can open my own brokerage if I wanted to. That’s about it. It is an accomplishment, but the overseeing school for real estate sees it as more money. I am awaiting results on a recent test, which I hope to do well on. This course costs nearly $500 & if I have to re-take the test it costs an additional $50. If you don’t pass after the 2nd try–you guessed it–you get to pay the entire $500 again. Yippee! Now, seriously isn’t that absurd?

Greed seems to be running the world right now. Look at gas prices, insurance, clothing, food, etc. Greed is so prevalent that you never know what to believe anymore. Do I take this supplement or is someone just selling it to me to make the money. There’s so many gimmicks out there. Wear this jewelry–it will solve all your problems. Give money to this man–he somehow can cure everything w/ a dab of special water. It just seems nuts, but the problem is that these people are marketing to others who are weak at that time. People who need help, not a con man.We all are guilty of wanting that quick, easy fix. I definitely am guilty!  We all are vulnerable at times and don’t take the time to ask specifics–we just act or maybe just react. Either way, it is someone’s greed preying on innocence.

The real issue is that as prices rise, people who normally just enjoying helping others stop doing so. You can’t afford to help as much. At some point you have to make ends meet. It’s all cyclical. I was at Lululemon, one of my fav stores. I was very interested in a dress they were selling. I was interested until I saw it in person. They are asking $100 for a piece of cloth w/ two arm holes. That’s it! To me, there was no style, detailing, nothing. That is what made me think to write this post. I love Lulu, 98% of my closet is Lulu. I’m not going to stop buying it, but I am going to start taking notice when they get too greedy. This company charged less money when all the clothing was being made here in Canada. Now that they have started having clothing made elsewhere they are asking more money. Isn’t that the exact opposite of what is supposed to happen? I know this may make some dedicated Lulu lovers angry, but it’s the truth. That’s how it is–can’t get mad at the truth. Like I said, I love the company, the clothing and all, but I have to start realizing when they are just asking for too much. That’s my stand–not buying things when they are obviously overpriced for what I think they should be.

Well, enough of my pedestal talk, but I just wanted to point this out.I wanted to put out a reminder to still try to help. It doesn’t go un-noticed. Of course, you have to take care of your own needs and in doing this you may not be able to do as much for free, but do some. Please don’t let the greedy people win. Stand up for things you belive in and do what you can . We all appreciate it.

To totally change the topic and end on a lighter note…doesn’t this pic get you in the mood for spring? Being outdoors, seeing all the bright new life that is growing. Very exciting. Also, we’ve been enjoying MG’s newest yummy creation of avocado, w/ spicy oil drizzled on and baked until golden. Insanely delish! Add a bit of asparagus w/ some oil, baked, sprinkled w/ parmesan and what a delightful meal. Full of vitamins, protein, good fats, folate, iron, calcium, just to name a few.

I even made some vegetarian tacos the other night. Pretty easy to do, as anyone who knows me knows I am NOT a cook, but they tasted great. Not necessarily packed full w/ vitamins, but a nice treat from time to time.

Thanks for listening and remember to not always think w/ your pockets!

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May Look the Same, But Could Not Be More Different!

All of us in Austria--Amazing!

My Mom!

This blog has been going on for just over a year now. I can’t help but look back at a year ago when I first began blogging. I think about last December when my life was just about to be turned upside down. Last February may look the same, but feels drastically different. What a difference a year can make. This makes me think back for a moment: I had lost one of my two precious dogs and little did I know that last December, only 8 months after losing Stryker, my other dog Tazz would pass away. Little did I know that last December I would become pregnant and find out that my mother had breast cancer.

Then, I move to January where all hell broke loose. My mother had a mastectomy at the same time I had a D&C due to my molar pregnancy. My mom and I would be 12 hrs away from one another (NC to Ontario) having surgeries and supporting each other from afar. Neither of us could be there physically for one another, but somehow the mother/daughter bond brought us through. Amazingly, in one of her worst times and one of mine, we were helping the other be stronger than ever before. Sometimes you don’t have to be beside someone to have a connection, support, love.

Stryker & Tazz on a nice day!


MG and I--Mayan Riviera

Follow that up w/ last February. It just kept going. My HcG levels were dropping nicely. All felt like after the worst time of my life things were going right. Then, on Feb 5th my fiance and I made an overnight decision to get away and surprise some family w/ a visit to Mexico. On the way to the airport, my best friend reaches out to tell me her mother passed away suddenly. We have been best friends since we were 4 yrs old. This wonderful woman was a 2nd mother to me. Again, being 12 hrs away (NC to Ontario) and now on a flight to Mexico, how could I be there to support her? Needless to say I wasn’t physically there for her either. Our strength in friendship overrides all though and we got through it–together. After an amazing vacay in the Mayan Riviera, my HcG levels started to rise. I was sent to several specialists and ending at the oncologist’s where they wanted me to get chemo. You can read in my earlier blogs all about that ordeal.

The rest of my year went well and brings me to now. Same month, same spelling, same feeling as last year, but very different. Thank God! My life has changed in so many ways. I look back and wish things had not gone the way they did, but I learned so much. I truly became a better person, a much different person, but better. I realized how special each and every day is and how short life is and how quickly they can change. I learned to try not to take things so seriously and try to focus on the positive.

They love to watch the ducks!

My 2012 will be different. I have two new amazing pups. They will never be Stryker and Tazz, but I don’t want them to be. They are who they are and we are having a blast. I love them like crazy and I don’t compare–that wouldn’t be fair to me or them. I waited long enough for me to get anther dog and it is amazing. My mother is doing very well and I just hope to be half as strong as her. I never realized how amazingly tough, strong and powerful she was until she went through cancer. As terrible as that was for her it made her a better person. She retired from a job she didn’t enjoy anymore (she would never have left if not for the cancer), she goes to cooking classes, walks, exercises, eats better and the list goes on. All things she never really did before cancer. My best friend is doing well and still has rough patches in getting through the emotions of losing her mother, but she is ok. I have been cleared, finally, after a year of blood work and tests. I don’t have to have any check ups now.

We all have ups and downs. Mine all happened in a 10 month span. I’m sure I will have more as life goes on. I’ve learned to be strong for others and help even if I can’t be right by their side. A true bond will get you through as long as you are there in some form. I try to see the positive and I’m much stronger. My life could not be more different from a year ago. There’s a lot I would change, but I got through it. I survived. You all will. Sometimes it takes time and when you are at your lowest is when you have to fight the hardest. It is so easy to be happy when all is well. The true test of character is when times are rough. Mine and my loved ones true character’s came out last year and I’m proud to say we are all better people and could not have supported each other more. I’m honored to be in each and every one of your lives–the one’s mentioned here and the other’s who just supported me in the background–you know who you are and I thank you! Here’s to 2012!

After a Cold Swim

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Christmas Anyone?

No Scrooges allowed in our house. We love Christmas! I think we are usually the first on  our street to decorate and definitely decorate the most. One of the few homes without children, but w/ the most decorations. We enjoy it. What I don’t enjoy is taking them down. Does anyone else notice how fun, easy, and seemingly quick it is when the lights are going up? Well, we enjoy it. We have the pups around playing, the Christmas tunes cranked, the fireplace glowing, a steaming hot coffee nearby and a big box full of tangled lights, containers of forgotten ornaments and loads of “now where does this go again” conversations. We use a boxed tree, so I have a lovely smelling pine tree candle burning, so we get the feel of a live Christmas tree. I just love it. But then comes Dec 26th….all downhill from there. The lights still come on b/c of course you cannot remove them b/c of some superstition w/ waiting until after New Year’s Day. So, like w/ every holiday, once it is time for the decorations to come down, we get them down. We don’t have quite the glow, smile or sugar-plum fairies dancing in our heads, but we get them down. It is almost like a mission…a little minor war of our own. No Christmas music, dancing, still have the hot coffee, but not talking. Just boxing, removing, labelling and trying to find which box each ornament originally belonged in. It seems to take forever, but we bunker down and get it done.

I even enjoy all the hustle and bustle at the malls, stores, etc. It just keeps you in the spirit. Everywhere you go there’s lights, music, just joy in the air. Well, most of the time. If you save all your shopping until the last night—you may not have or see as much joy. Just remember the point to the season. For me, I will never take Christ out of Christmas and it does make me sad to see how much “he” is being left out of this holiday. Also, it is always about family, joy, being happy and of course presents. I still love presents. I don’t care about my birthday, but I’m still a kid when it comes to Christmas morning. I think I always will be. I enjoy giving and surprising others as much if not more than I enjoy receiving. One thing for sure…LuluLemon is definitely on my wish list. We’ve been so lucky here for weather as well. It is starting to get pretty cold here now, but no snow. The days are still very nice–cool, crisp, sunny, but the nights are COLD! Still, no snow yet. Usually, I’m excited for snow and I still am this year, but w/ the 2 pups around, I’m enjoying the warmer temps right now. It is much easier to take them out for their “washroom breaks” when it is not bone-chilling, snow-covered nights.

Anyway, please enjoy the holidays. Don’t take them for granted. Remember your loved ones, friends, others who don’t have anything (human and animal) and the true meaning of Christmas for you. Everyone has their own individual meaning for Christmas, so celebrate it and do what you want. This is the time for “wants” not “needs”. Enjoy the time w/ family and friends and soak up every moment. You never know what next year may bring, so treat it like you won’t get this moment again. Live it, enjoy it and make the most of the entire season!

Family Christmas 2011

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